Begin the Begin Pt. 2

"Fresh starts. Thanks to the calendar, they happen every year. Just set your watch to January."

--Grey’s Anatomy

Thank God for a brand new year…a fresh start. 2013, here's to you.

I sit here on my parents’ couch, curled up with a blanket, the fire place blazing and I just feel this overwhelming sense of comfort and accomplishment. This is my fifty-second blog. One blog a week for a whole year…I did it. I freaking did it.
          Just like 2011, 2012 was a challenge between job, friendships, family, etc. I am still at the same job and I’ve been there for two and a half years. Just like I stated on my first blog, I know I cannot stay at this job forever. I have a passion in my life for entertainment. I have a passion for writing. I have a passion for art. I have a passion for people. I wanted to make a life change in 2012, but it just never worked out. This year just has to be my year. 2013, here is to taking a risk, moving away, and working towards my passion.
Just like 2011, 2012 defined friendships for me. I lost a friend. I thought we’d be friends forever. The relationship was just toxic. We were only going to end up hurting one another—so I told her I was stepping away and calling it quits. It’s never easy ending a friendship. It hurt me, but it also saved me. I never wanted to hurt that person, but it is what I had to do. I hope that she can find peace and love in life. The upside to losing friends, is gaining friends. I’m thankful for all my friendships. I hope that 2013 brings me more friendships and makes my current friendships stronger.
        2012 was a good year for my family. My brothers may still be lost and throwing their lives away, but I think some reality has set in that they do not ever want to go back to jail.
My mom got a promotion at work and my parents are going to be doing very well. I am happy for them. They struggled so much when I was little that they finally have the means. It is a major blessing.
My mom’s job promotion took her to Canada for the majority of 2012, so I had the privilege of hanging out with a friend’s family, who became my surrogate family this past year. I am thankful for them too. I wish nothing but the best for them in 2013.

“Our reward for surviving the holiday season is a new year. Bringing on the great tradition of New Year’s resolutions. “

 
I set four resolutions for 2012. I met three of them.
Goal 1: Write a blog for an entire year= ACCOMPLISHED
Goal 2: Learn to play piano= ACCOMPLSHED (and still working on it)
Goal 3: Stop biting my nails= ACCOMPLISHED
Goal 4: Get Katy Perry to see my tattoo= NOT ACCOMPLISHED (but I’m not giving up).

My resolutions 2013 are: continue to write, continue to play piano, pursue my dreams, take risks, live fully to my greatest potential and my year to fully embrace all that life has to offer.

“It’s hard to resist the chance at a new beginning.”

Friends, take this chance for your new beginning. Live your life to your greatest potential in 2013. And remember what's important, it is important to remember that "we never stop believing we can have a new beginning."

Begin the Begin

"Fresh starts. Thanks to the calendar, they happen every year. Just set your watch to January."
                                                                                                                          -Meredith Grey

Thank God for a brand new year. A fresh start. 2012, here's to you.
As I sit here comfortably on my bed, computer on my lap, mindlessly plunking away at the keyboard, I think "Wow, a whole new year. I'm truly blessed." However, if you spoke to me a few months ago I would have never have said "blessed."

2011 was a challenge between job, friendships, family, etc. I was offered a permanent position at my temp job and took it. I took it because, hell I need the money. I took it because I felt secure. I took it because I had nothing else. My job is a blessing. It pays the bills. It pays my student loans. It leaves me money to go out and to "extra" things. However, I know I must not stay at this job forever. I have a passion in my life for entertainment. I have a passion for writing. I have a passion for art. I have a passion for people. With all these passions, who knows where I might end up. 2012, here is to you finding me a job in my passion.

2011 defined friendships for me. I lost friends. I gained friends. I wrecked relationships with friends. I saved relationships with friends. Sometimes I miss the security and comfort I found in my friends during my college days. But, just like high school we graduate and move on. Occassionally, I still ache for their prescence in my life; but, maybe someday that ache will be filled. As for now, Facebook and Twitter are sufficent enough.

2011 changed my family. My brothers have been in and out of trouble with drugs, alcohol, stealing and pawning valuable belongings of theirs and my parents for their next high. My parents have struggled the entire year with figuring out what to do. They did not raise my brothers to behave this way and mostly found themselves overwhelemed with disbelief by the whole situation.
 Just before Christmas my brothers got into a phyiscal fight, and found themselves spending a few nights in the county jail. They were suppose to spend the holidays in jail. Thanks to a program called "New Day" they were released and charges were dropped. It was hard to think that for the first time in my life, I would not be spending Christmas with my brothers. Granted my relationship with them is not great, I still love them both dearly. I hope and pray that 2012 can be a year for my brothers to get clean, get help, find a job and be successful.

As Meredith Grey says, “Our reward for surviving the holiday season is a new year. Bringing on the great tradition of new years resolutions. Put your past behind you and start over."

I am putting 2011 behind me and starting over, fresh. I survived the holiday season. I had my family and friends wonderful love and support the entire year. Here's to another year of live, love, and laughter.

2012..you are my new beginning. My year to love. My year to life fully to my greatest potential. My year to fully embrace all that life has to offer.

“It’s hard to resist the chance at a new beginning.”

Friends, take this chance for your new beginning. Live your life to your greatest potential in 2012. And remember what's important, it is important to remember that "we never stop believing we can have a new beginning."