“The brain is the body’s most mysterious organ. It learns. It changes.
It adapts. It tells us what we see….what we hear. It lets us feel love. I think
it holds our soul. But no matter how much research we do, no one can really say
how all the delicate grey matter inside our skull works.” –Grey’s Anatomy
There was a time in
my life when I fell into an extremely dark place. My whole world changed around
me. The energy was negative and I saw the world in shades of grey. I felt
haunted by mysterious shadows ready to take my soul further into the dark
place. I felt weighed down by doubt and insecurity. I was completely hopeless.
There are things that I saw, things that I felt, and things that I heard that no
other human being should ever experience.
To some, this may sound completely unbelievable. To me, I feel as if I
sound completely insane writing this. But, it is true. It happened.During this time in my life, I had just
experienced severe hurt, loss, and trauma. I felt inhuman. Was this whole dark
place the mysterious workings of my brain and my heart’s lack of hope and love?
Love. It is described as one of
life’s strongest feelings. It is often said that love closely resembles the
same power that hate does. Humankind would benefit from putting more effort
into love than hate. Humans are the only species who kill their own kind. We
lack compassion. We lack love. My most favorite description of love is found in
the Bible, whether you believe in the Bible or not…I feel as if the description
of love is what love should be. If this type of love was put into practice,
what kind of world would we have? The verse reads like this:
“Love is patient and
kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not
insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at
wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all
things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never ends.”
I used to live my life in a box.
There was left, right, up and down and that was it. There came a time when I
broke out of the box and realized there was more than life in a box. I began to
see the world for what it was and not what I was told it was. I began to see
people for people. I became accepting of all walks of life, because no matter
what we are all God’s children. I wanted (and will always want) to show the
people of this world true compassion and true love, because let’s all face it—this
world is full of evil and hate. I’m considered a deviant in my family—as I have
strayed away from all that I used to know and was told. I am told to pray
because it is wrong to be accepting of equal rights. I am told to pray because
I do not vote for righteousness—and in the words of a great friend, “You are
voting for a President, not the Pope.” I’ve learned to smile and walk away. It
is not worth it. I will never see eye to eye with my family. I will never see
eye to eye with a lot of my friends. I’m just here to say, that I am accepting
and respecting of what one chooses to do. I just hope the leaders of our
country can keep in mind that God gave us free will—and with that free will we
should be allowed to choose how we live life.
The brain is the body’s most mysterious
organ. It learns. It changes. It adapts.
I came out of darkness with me
still intact. I came out of darkness with an understanding of life and love. I
came out of darkness when all hope was lost. From darkness, I found music and songs
beneath songs. From out of darkness, I decided to adapt to here and now and not
what had passed. The mere delicacy of
the brain almost seems ironic to its mysteriousness. We are born with one
brain. Why? Who will ever know? I’ve
learned. I’ve changed. I’ve adapted…maybe I need to thank my brain for opening
my eyes and changing me for the better. Maybe I need to thank my brain for
adapting to a world that so desperately needs to be shown love, compassion, and
equality. Maybe I need to thank my brain for learning, and then in turn,
teaching me humanity.
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